Rainy Days & Mondays

" Talking to myself and feeling old...sometimes I'd like to quit...nothin' ever seems to fit...hangin' around...nothin' to do but frown...rainy days and mondays always get me down"

Ahh! That Carpenters' song really expresses what I feel today. It's a Monday and of course another work week is about to unfold. I really feel tired, depressed and lazy today as I always do every Monday. Probably this feeling really comes with age. I remember when I was younger, I really don't care what day it is, if I have to go to work, no fuss, I will...but now things have really changed. Yes, I still do my obligations as an employee, I believe my days of being absent are less as compared to some of my colleagues and hey, I never exceeded the allowed number of days for leaves. At the end of the year, I still get a cash conversion for some of my unused leaves. This might also be because I feel so stressed out with my current job, ahhh!

Well, believe it or not I really am doing something about this Monday syndrome of mine. Every Sunday night and Monday morning, I always pray and ask God to allow me to enjoy my work and help me accomplish a lot of things. It works most of the time but it's really hard.

The day is almost over and surprisingly I have endured another Monday at work. I was kinda worried though 'coz my sister Jeng left for Malaysia today (she has to attend a training & conference there) and it was reported in the news that there was a haze there which came from Indonesia, a really bad smell as they put it. Like me, she has asthma (hers is more severe actually) which made me all the more worried. Kokoy was kind enough to treat me to dinner tonight for he knows I'm depressed on Mondays. At least we were able to talk and I was able to release some of the tension I feel, you bet he has become my outlet, hehehe. Anyway, when I reached home, I got a text message from Jeng saying that she landed safely and that she's already in the hotel.

I'm kinda okay now, still recovering from my Monday syndrome. I don't wanna think about how I'm gonna feel or how the day will turn out next Monday....let me endure this week and enjoy the coming weekend first.