Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Turning 30

I can't believe it, I am turning 30 years old tomorrow! The said fact led me into thinking, what have I done so far in my life? I am just starting a family, I have a career that sustains me (& my family) on a physiological aspect, hmmm. Have I really achieved something significant for the last 3 decades?
I was an okay student in high school, an above average student in college, a happy-go-lucky girl in my early twenties but learned the harsh realities of life during mid-twenties, got back on track in my late twenties...so what??? I must admit that I haven't gone that far, but God rode with me all throughout and that's the most important thing of all.
I knew God because I studied in Catholic schools from grade school to college, I knew God because my father brought me to different churches to attend novenas...but that was it then. However, I accepted God as my savior when things were dim & confusing ( this happened in my early & mid-twenties). I must consider myself lucky for when things were tough, God revealed Himself to me.
My life has been a testimony of childlike faith, of total dependence on God. True, I may not have achieved much but I still consider myself blessed for I've learned the truth before it is too late. Accepting Him as my savior is the greatest achievement I've done so far & probably in my entire life.
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For the past 3 decades, I've helped & cheered some people but I've also hurt some. I may sound like a religious guru to you in my entry above but I really am not, I know one way or the other I have been a source of distress to some people. Whoever you are, I am sorry. And for those who hurt me (from past to present), I just want to let you know that I don't hold grudges on people. Once I've poured my heart out, that's it. I can easily forgive & put the past behind.
For those who truly love me...my friends & most esp. my family... I want all of you to know that even though I am not that demonstrative of my feelings... I truly love all of you:) Dates, once again thank you for your honesty, dedication & love. You know that I love you:) To my little angel (who is still in my womb), mommy loves you so much & I promise to take care of you for as long as I can . My 30 years of existence will not be meanigful if not for all of you. Thank you!