My Japanese Name ...(got this one from Peaches)

Your Japanese name should be

'Moriko'

which means "forest child".

You
love being in nature and see beauty in almost
everything; the trees, the flowers, the sky,
the sun. You're at your best surrounded by
nature. You love animals and they love you!

Which Japanese name fits you best? [females, 9 results + absolutely stunning ANIME pictures!]

just bear with me on this one

I'm feeling really emotionally drained lately. There are moments when I want to shout and just disappear for awhile. I feel so helpless, confused, sick of everything, etc. It's really a mixture of emotions. I know I'm not making any sense here and I don't even want to sound sensible. For once, I don't want to rationalize what I feel. There are actually events which transpired to make me feel this way but I don't want to write about it. I wish I am in a different situation...if I could just be somewhere else and have a moment of peace even just for awhile...

My SaSsY gIrL

10 remarkable lines from my favorite Korean film, My Sassy Girl:

1.Don't ask her to be feminine.
2.Don't let her drink over 3 glasses,she'll beat someone.
3. At a cafe, drink coffee instead of coke or juice.
4. If she hits you, act like it hurts. If it hurts,act like it doesn't.
5. On your 100th day together, give her a rose during class. She'll like it a lot.
6. Make sure you learn fencing and squash.
7. Also, be prepared to go to prison sometimes.
8. If she says she'll kill you, don't take it lightly, you'll feel better.
9. If her feet hurts, exchange shoes with her.
10. And finally, if she likes to write, encourage her.

Rainy Days & Mondays

" Talking to myself and feeling old...sometimes I'd like to quit...nothin' ever seems to fit...hangin' around...nothin' to do but frown...rainy days and mondays always get me down"

Ahh! That Carpenters' song really expresses what I feel today. It's a Monday and of course another work week is about to unfold. I really feel tired, depressed and lazy today as I always do every Monday. Probably this feeling really comes with age. I remember when I was younger, I really don't care what day it is, if I have to go to work, no fuss, I will...but now things have really changed. Yes, I still do my obligations as an employee, I believe my days of being absent are less as compared to some of my colleagues and hey, I never exceeded the allowed number of days for leaves. At the end of the year, I still get a cash conversion for some of my unused leaves. This might also be because I feel so stressed out with my current job, ahhh!

Well, believe it or not I really am doing something about this Monday syndrome of mine. Every Sunday night and Monday morning, I always pray and ask God to allow me to enjoy my work and help me accomplish a lot of things. It works most of the time but it's really hard.

The day is almost over and surprisingly I have endured another Monday at work. I was kinda worried though 'coz my sister Jeng left for Malaysia today (she has to attend a training & conference there) and it was reported in the news that there was a haze there which came from Indonesia, a really bad smell as they put it. Like me, she has asthma (hers is more severe actually) which made me all the more worried. Kokoy was kind enough to treat me to dinner tonight for he knows I'm depressed on Mondays. At least we were able to talk and I was able to release some of the tension I feel, you bet he has become my outlet, hehehe. Anyway, when I reached home, I got a text message from Jeng saying that she landed safely and that she's already in the hotel.

I'm kinda okay now, still recovering from my Monday syndrome. I don't wanna think about how I'm gonna feel or how the day will turn out next Monday....let me endure this week and enjoy the coming weekend first.

"If Only"

I've watched the movie "If Only" starring Jennifer Love Hewitt and Paul Nicholls on DVD last Sunday. Man, it was quite a movie. It was about a guy who thought he lost his girlfriend over an accident. Before his girlfriend died, the day didn't turn out right for him and he actually blamed her for the series of unfortunate events that happened to him. They broke up before his girlfriend met an accident. He felt so guilty about everything so you could just imagine his surprise when he woke up beside her the next morning. I wouldn't want to tell you what happened in the end, better watch it.

Since he was given a chance to be with her again, he cherished those moments he spent with her. His dillema before she died was that he knows he loves her but he actually doesn't know how to love her. So on that day that they were together, he professed his love for her in more ways than one.

The movie basically revolved on the question, "What would you want to do if it's your last day here on earth?" I know this may sound morbid to some but death is inevitable, we should not be scared to discuss it every now & then. A lot of people may not agree with me but I do find those people who knew when they will die (like those people who are terribly ill and were advised by their doctors that they could live until a certain period of time) lucky. Why? Because at least they would know what they would do during their remaining time. Some of us may just die in a snap of a finger without any warning. True, we should always live as if it is always our last but I also believe in living for the moment. There are just some things that couldn't be accomplished at once, some things really takes time to do.

So, if you really knew that today will be your last what would you do? I would give my answer on this one, definitely I will not go to work (that would be tragic!). Let's see, I would want to have confession and hear mass. Then, I would contact those people I hurt and those who hurt me as well to patch things up. I would spend the rest of the day with my loved ones. I know most of us will do the latter, all of us should actually. This was what they did in the movie, they spent the whole day together, not minding anything but their love for each other. They talked of things that they usually do not discuss, they made love, they went to a place that the girl is dying to go to but most importantly they professed their appreciation and love for each other. If there's anything that we can actually do everyday and not wait before our "last day", it would be to show our appreciation and love to people who are important to us. I, myself, is a sucker for appreciation. It's not about boosting your ego, it's more on feeling that you are loved. A pat on the back, a smile, a hug and if you can always say how much you a love a person that would really spell the difference. We tend to take people esp. those whom we love for granted, let us learn to appreciate them on a daily basis.

I would just like to end this with Paul Nicholls' last statement to Jennifer Love Hewitt,

"I wanna tell you why I love you
I have to tell you this and you need to hear it.

I loved you since I met you
But I wouldn’t allow myself to truly feel it
until today.
I was always thinking ahead.
Making decisions out of fear.
Today, because of you , what I learned from you.
Every choice I made was different
and my life has completely changed.
And I’ve learned that if you do that,
You’re living your life, FULLY!
It doesn’t matter if you have five minutes
Or 50 years.
If not for today, if not for you.
I would never have known love at all.

So thank you for being the person
Who taught me to love and to be loved.

I just wanted to tell you this and you don’t
have to say anything ."

If we will all say these things to our loved ones everyday then we are really living our lives to the fullest and there won't be any room for regrets.

One Is Enough

Last Saturday, my fiance & I went to a birthday & house warming of one of our friends. We were there from 5:00 pm to 12:30 am! And it was because one of my friends asked me to wait for him, he arrived around 10:30 pm. Well, I could say that it was worth the wait. Alen (my friend who asked me to wait for him) is really one guy you wouldn't mind waiting for because his mere presence always livens up any conversations or parties. We spent the whole night talking and laughing. We seldom see each other but whenever we do, it was like we were never really became apart (well I feel this way to all our other barkadas as well).

Time flies really fast... we reminisced our late teens and early 20s life...how we survived a lot of car troubles together (the floodway incident was the most difficult but the the funniest one)...how we travelled from south to east for a night....the time we went home when our neighbors were already cooking breakfast...thin red line (hahaha)...bananarama (i'm your venus, i'm your fire, you're desire...bwahahaha)...we even reminsced the time we went to anitpolo together (we had different partners then), it's nice to know that we can have a good laugh about it now ('coz those 2 people have hurt us before)....I know he's contented with his girlfriend now (they look so good and happy together) the way I am with my fiance.

The point is, we (our other friends included), stood the test of time. We've been through so many things together, good and bad (I'm sounding melodramatic here, but it's true). A lot of people and different sets of friends have entered our lives but our friendship stayed. As I mentioned, we seldom see each other nor talk on the phone often but the connection is always there. Friendship does not mean that you always hang-out together...it is knowing that you always have someone to go to whenever you needed a friend. True friends will always be there and they will always accept you no matter what. True friends are hard to find these days...so when you find them, keep them and take care of them. You're missing a lot if you haven't found true friends by your side in this lifetime.

I consider myself really blessed to have found true friends. It doesn't really matter if you have plenty of them...it is enough to have one true friend to consider yourself blessed.